Stay clear of the sun,

myurlisuseless @ 2008-10-13T21:46:00

2008-10-14T01:50:38Z

on the topic of my life instead of my thoughts...

I dated Ethan for awhile
but I dumped him
cuz he told me he was in love with me

I've been hanging out with Krystal a lot lately. I've been really wild lately too.
Last week was Ron's birthday party haha that was really fun.
Went to Tennessee this past weekend, it was cool I guess.

Found out one of my ex's is a complete and total loser (no surprise)
and found out another one won't stop stalking me
I have the best of luck =)

I'm keeping most of this on private
mostly because I know a certain girl who likes to lurk people because she has nothing else better to do.
and in case of parents.

I've found everyone's christmas presents =)
I want to get my dad a little toy prop of Audrey II from Little Shop of Horrors
it's soooooooooooooo cute haha

myurlisuseless @ 2008-09-07T18:34:00

2008-09-07T22:34:39Z

jayme's living with me for a week =)
school's actually been fun
um..
yea that's it

myurlisuseless @ 2008-08-23T23:46:00

2008-08-24T03:51:39Z

You try so hard to be some kind of deep thoughtful person but you spout about how one thing is wrong and then turn around and do it yourself.
You left me. I don't want to hear you bitch about it and claim I left you. I told you to come to me when you wanted to talk about it.
You never did.
and now all you do is talk shit.
But apparently, that's all you did before too.
So I guess it really doesn't matter.
Have a nice life.

myurlisuseless @ 2008-08-21T03:22:00

2008-08-21T07:22:58Z

Well you know I hardly speak. When I do, it's just for you.
I haven't said a word in weeks cuz they've been keepin' me from you.

myurlisuseless @ 2008-08-18T01:00:00

2008-08-18T05:07:58Z

lets see...all week I've hung out with Jayme
the past two days was Jayme and Leslie
and a couple times with Krystal, Sarah and Jayme's friend Jeremy.
haha I enjoy being constantly busy it's nice
I got my hair done it looks really good I love it =)

hahaha the other day Jayme and I were in the livingroom and I looked out the window and saw this random guy in my backyard playing with my dog. We kept watching him and finally he saw us and started walking toward the door and we ran to the back of the house hahaha Jayme ended up slamming my arm into the doorknob and now I have a big bruise on it haha. It turned out Lucy had just gotten away and he'd returned her for us.

we ended up making a summer playlist with all the songs we've been listening to nonstop since summer started

Where's the Weed At by Kottonmouth Kings
Paper Planes by M.I.A.
Got Your Money by Say Anything
Burin' Up by The Jonas Brothers
Shake It by Metro Station
Calabira by Enur
American Boy by Estelle
Butterfly by Crazytown
Disturbia by Rhianna
Ding Dong Song by Gunther and the Sunshine Girls
My Dick by Mickey Avalon
Give It Up by Pepper
I Kissed a Girl by Katy Perry
Dancing Queen by Abba
Werewolf by Cocorosie
The Distance by Cake
Go With the Flow by Queens of the Stone Age
Siberian Kiss by Glassjaw
Amber by 311

haha it's a weird playlist but those songs are fun to listen to with other people

I'm sad it's the last week of summer =[
I started reading The Catcher in the Rye so far I really like it.

myurlisuseless @ 2008-08-14T12:37:00

2008-08-14T16:40:40Z

the past two weeks have been amazing
I've been hanging out with Jayme nonstop since she lives right down the road haha
life couldn't be better right now =)
I've gotten rid of all the people who just weren't worth the time
and stuck with the ones who've proven I made the right choice
<3

myurlisuseless @ 2008-08-03T18:40:00

2008-08-03T22:41:23Z

god what a week
last night was the first night I'd been home in a long ass time
I spent pretty much every day with Sarah and Krystal and ended the week with Maria
it was so much fun

I bought Breaking Dawn today and I can't put it down
I also got a new bed and we finally picked out the house we're gonna get
=D

myurlisuseless @ 2008-07-28T04:10:00

2008-07-28T08:23:29Z

I feel light.
I really enjoy being busy all the time.
I came home today and passed out on the couch for 5 hours though haha.
Tomorrow I'm hanging out with Jayme and then the next day I'm hanging out with Krystal.
I never realized what a bookworm I am until today.

Thanks to Sarah I can't stop listening to M.I.A.

myurlisuseless @ 2008-07-27T02:04:00

2008-07-27T06:31:31Z

This has been by far one of the best weeks I've ever had.
haha I'm at Sarah's right now and she's passed out on the couch while I can't sleep.
thursday I went over to Maria's and I'm so glad I did. I missed her so much and we had an amazing time.
friday Sarah came and picked me up with Kennedy and we hung out with Crystal and Brandon before we went to Tremont.
The show was by far the worst I've ever been to though but it was cool to see a bunch of old friends there.
I finally got to meet AthenaMarie and she's the prettiest baby I've ever seen, she's so well behaved too. We spent the night and Athena only woke up once crying. We ended up eating at the penguin (ew) and Ethan surprised me though he didn't stay for long =[
I found out Siera was asking about me though which was weird. I haven't thought about her in ages. Being at Crystal's does bring back all the memories of us sneeking to hang out together though haha. Despite all that bullshit that happened with us I do hope she's happy.
Today we went to Windsor and sold stuff with Crystal. She only ended up getting like 14 dollars because Once Upon a Child wanted us to wait for 2 hours before they'd go through her stuff and Plato's Closet rejected every cute thing she tried to sell them. After that we dropped everyone off and went to Sarah's to relax though. I haven't the slightest clue what we're gonna do tomorrow while we wait for Krystal to come back. Whenever her ass gets home from Miami we're headed over to her house to get her. She's been gone toooooo fucking long for all of our liking haha.

I fucking love Central, I'd missed it so much. When Crystal gets back from her boyfriends next week I'm gonna go back over. I went into Sadu and god they have some cute fucking jewelry holy shit. The guy heard me talking to Sarah about how I like getting peirced because I think it feels good and immediately jumped on talking to me haha he was cute. I don't think I want an industrial anymore, I don't think it'd look good on me. Instead I'm just gonna get a conch and a helix done on my left ear. My Tragus looks really good right now and I'm up to those pretty red zerp gauges. My mom got mad at me for like 5 minutes about peircing myself behind her back but then I think she realized I could've done worse.

All in all a very good week =)
I'm gonna dye my hair soon but I'm not sure if I want to do the blonde and brown like I used to have or if I want to go crazy and do a really cute blonde, purple and pink stacked layer. I haven't done anything bizarre in a long ass time so I might just do it haha.

Writer's Block: Phobias

2008-07-25T04:21:47Z

Do you have a remarkable phobia? Does your phobia have a large impact on your life?

Submitted By bitter_melodee

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I have a massive phobia of cockroaches. Just the idea of them make me want to scream. I shuddered when I thought about it for this thing. If I see one I scream and run away even if it's all the way across the room or just outside. They're disgusting and the only things that would survive a nuclear holocaust. Ew...even pictures scare the shit out of me.

myurlisuseless @ 2008-07-20T19:02:00

2008-07-20T23:11:47Z

Yesterday I went and saw The Dark Knight with Krystal and Ron at Northlake, it was amazing. I absolutely loved it, it was a little too long though but it was still good. Heath Ledger did an amazing job. I'm taking a break today though, I've been doing something everyday for the past 3-4 weeks. Krystal's going to Miami today though and won't be back for a week =[

I decided I'm going to get my rook and helix pierced on the ear with my tragus and an industrial on the other.
I finally got my ears up to a 0, in a week or two I'm gonna go to a 00 because my left ear got split open on the inside so I need to take it slow.

myurlisuseless @ 2008-07-16T17:17:00

2008-07-16T21:21:40Z

fuck my ears hurt
I'm stretching them to a zero and they hurt like fucking hell
I accidently hit one of them and it wouldn't stop stinging for 30 minutes.

Ethan came over yesterday for a bit and we went to Target
I'm not sure why though, we didn't buy anything.
He wanted me to call him today but idk if I will.

myurlisuseless @ 2008-07-15T02:50:00

2008-07-15T06:49:57Z

HAHA you finally got what was coming to you, you asshole!
I can't wait to see what else she does to you.

ohh that felt so good to see.
I'd been waiting so long for you feel even the smallest fraction of what you did to me and it finally happened.
It's not such a nice feeling is it?

you've got a LOT more than that headed your way too with everything that happened.
I hope you get hit by a bus.

myurlisuseless @ 2008-07-09T09:28:00

2008-07-09T14:39:04Z

blah, blah, blah
I'm in Tennessee right now waiting for my dad to come pick me up so I can go home.
The Cayman's was cool...too hot though.
The shopping was amazing
but that's just me, I go to different countries just to shop.
I got to go to the beach for the first time too, it was REALLY nice the water was beautiful.

My cousin is the cutest little thing.
He's only 3.
My grandma told him she needed to pee and he told her to hold her penis
hahaha.

I wish I loved anything as much as he loves power rangers though I mean damn he loves those things.
We bought him some and it made his whole week.

I found out Parrots live to be over a 100 though, I never knew that. We went to this resturant where they had some in their 50's.
My family thinks that since I want to go to England so badly that once I get my cosmetology liscense that I should go over there to work for a few years. It sounds cool I might do it. You never know where that might lead.

I want to go home =[

myurlisuseless @ 2008-06-24T21:25:00

2008-06-25T01:30:41Z

umm...idk
I've been busy
so no major updates
and soon I'll be leaving for the Cayman Islands
Thank fucking God
I can't wait to leave America.

Jayce says we're getting married on the second HAHA
I won't even be here so hope that goes well.
Ethan and Justin are dumb...sorry but you guys really are haha.
They've kept me entertained most of this and last week.
I wonder what Kyle thinks of the two of you hanging out with me all the time.
I'd especially like to know what he thinks about Ethan hahahahahaha.

The mail takes too damn long to arrive.
I ordered some clothes and god they're taking forever.

I need to be more deep, all my other entries are like massive paragraphs except the recent ones.

myurlisuseless @ 2008-06-20T01:07:00

2008-06-20T05:13:00Z

People are really pissing me off lately.
Though I guess that's nothing new haha.
I wish some people would just learn to shut their mouths, they can't seem to see that when they keep opening it, it just makes everything worse.

Tori Spelling has been pissing me off with her face.
It's so damn ugly.
Her facial features are so fucking manly.

I want every fuck-face to learn their lesson. I want karma to fucking work the way it should and get these fuckers back instead of letting them get away with it. That'd be nice to see for once.

myurlisuseless @ 2008-06-18T16:38:00

2008-06-18T20:39:52Z

I will never watch American History X ever again.
Can't do it.

It needs to hurry up and be tomorrow so I can go to Sarah's.
That's pretty much it.

I'm gonna go take a nap, I didn't sleep worth shit last night.

myurlisuseless @ 2008-06-11T11:43:00

2008-06-11T15:51:19Z

Last couple days of school were interesting.
I ditched monday and tuesday.
It was fun.

Monday Krystal, Mary, Camille and I all just got up and hopped on the city bus.
We walked around, got some breakfast and then got on the Lynx. Mary bought me that Victoria Beckham perfume and we just spent the whole day downtown and ate lunch at Pikes. It was a lot of fun. The bus ride back was hilarious though, the guy behind us kept switching from pretending he was a zombie to pretending he was a canary. He'd groan like a zombie and then chirp constantly when finally the bus stopped and he ran off like some kind of maniac haha. We had this other guy who looked like he escaped Deliverance who wouldn't stop staring at me too. Ugh he was ugly and creepy.

Tuesday I just didn't go. Wasn't worth it.
I don't understand why everyone feels the need to say bye to everyone. Fuck that.

I can't wait to leave. I'm excited for what these next few months will bring.

vagina dentata

2008-06-09T05:40:41Z

omgggg so I completely forgot to mention the movie Teeth. You all need to go see it. It's fucking HILARIOUS.
Best thing I've ever seen.
It's about a girl who's vagina has teeth.
Shark like teeth.
That bite off penis' or fingers if they're unwelcome.
It's so funny.
There's this part where this creepy asshole OBGYN doctor shoves his whole hand up inside of her and she's screaming at him to stop because it hurts but since he's a big creepo he won't stop and it bites his fingers off. The best part is though his hand gets stuck in there and they're both screaming and she's trying to kick him off but her vagina won't let go. Omg we all died laughing.

spectacular.

2008-06-09T01:05:11Z

Friday was the first night of my life I felt free.
Krystal, Mary, Ryan and I all left school two hours early, we had no reason to be there, there was nothing to do. So we just split.
Going out on Mary's boat was amazing, Krystal and I stayed at the front and watched as we drove around the lake. We discussed how it felt like we were running away and everything we saw before us was completely new and ours. An entire new world. I felt all the stress and anger from this year fall away and in return I was filled with a sensational happiness. In that moment I knew no matter what I would always have Krystal, I knew she wouldn't dissapoint me like all the others have. It felt so good, I long so much to get away from this place and have a whole new start. What I felt Friday was a taste of what it could be like and I want it.
We went swimming in the lake at midnight and the sky was absolutely beautiful, we saw shooting stars and floated around for hours. Later we fell asleep on someone's boat and woke up sometime around 4 in the morning, when we got back to Mary's we all just slept til 11 and took showers. My hair turns into ringlet curls if I sleep on it wet.

Soon I'll be going with Sarah to Asheville, I'm so excited about it since she'll have her car and be able to drive. I'm gonna go camping sometime this summer too and I'm really excited about it because I've never done it. Hopefully I'll get to go to the beach for the first time this summer too. When we were on the lake Krystal said today was the first day of summer and 10 minutes later we saw a butterfly. Butterflies are good omens and we all believed it meant summer would be spectacular.

I can't wait.

myurlisuseless @ 2008-06-03T22:18:00

2008-06-04T02:19:36Z

I've grown really tired of this year.

Everyone's turned out to be so fake, this year has really opened my eyes to the people I'm surrounded by everyday. I'm tired of people giving me advice on situations they've never even expeirenced and critisizing me over actions they would do themselves given the right circumstances. I've learned that this year it doesn't matter how well you think you know someone because the next day they can be completely different. All it takes is one moment, one little glimpse at the other side of their personality, to completely shatter the image you originally had of them. You can build someone up only to get shit treatment in return for helping them. You can finally get the courage to go for that one person only to get a world of embarressment in return for being nothing but kind to them. You can have another person come to you, they teach you so much about yourself and then find out you never meant anything at all to them. You were just a passing flavor of the month. You grow distant from old friends and learn to forget your old enemies just to replace them with new ones.

It doesn't matter who you are because at the end of the day you're going through the same pain as everyone else. They're not suffering it the same moment you are but they do suffer from it eventually if they haven't already. You aren't special, you aren't different. The world isn't out to get you even though at times it truly does feel that way. Stop worrying about what some chick said about you to one of your friends or what your ex now thinks of you. Stop obsessing over what could have been or what you should have done. It's over. It's gone. Leave it alone. If you can't do that then you're just another dissapointment.

Have fun with your life. Don't just revolve your world around the negative.

myurlisuseless @ 2008-06-02T20:42:00

2008-06-03T01:17:01Z

I feel the need to rant on how I feel a lot of things are bullshit.
Like Karma. Karma's one big load of shit.
Good things don't come to those who do good and the people who spend their lives trying to hurt others only ever seem to get good things back in return. I have seen too many good people get stepped on and broken while the bad got whatever they wanted when they did absolutely nothing to deserve it. It doesn't make any sense. I refuse to believe God is okay with that backward system.

I'm tired of hearing people talk about how they want a meaningful true-love relationship at this age. We're kids. Shut the fuck up. All you're doing is wasting your time. Have fun now and worry about love when your old enough to feel like you could really commit to it because I don't care what anyone says, teenagers can't truly commit to one other person. And no I don't mean all teenagers cheat on people, there are other ways you can be unable to commit without having to go off and hook up with someone else.

You're all wasting your time saying I love you and talking about how you want to be with that person the rest of your life. People change. Constantly. One day you know someone and the next you don't. You won't be together forever because you'll eventually become strangers to one another.

Same goes for friendships too. You change. You part.
Some stay, but mostly they just go.

I don't feel like finishing this

oh la la la la

2008-06-02T02:42:46Z

This weekend was so nice =)
I love walking around Mary's neighborhood and I absolutely adore downtown Charlotte at night.
We were gonna go swimming in the lake but we ended up just walking around Overlook all night instead. It was so relaxing.
Sarah's surprise party went so nicely too haha she walked in singing the hooky pookey.

I think I might date Justin just for the hell of it. Actually...probably not I just changed my mind haha.
I can't wait to get my new stuff.
I swear getting my stuff stolen was probably the best thing that happened to me.
My new stuff is so much better.

Illusion never changed into something real.

2008-05-28T01:52:42Z

I feel like...
well I don't really know what I feel like
but I don't like it.

I'm seeing people a lot differently now, I thought I knew someone but I was wrong.
Everyone's different to me now.
More immature.
More attention seeking.
More pathetic.

I remember feeling really good about this year, I was always excited and always involved with someone but now I'm just pissed off and in need of being alone. I don't want relationships anymore, I don't really want anything to do with anyone like that right now actually. I certainly don't think I can fall in love so there's no need for me to date honestly, hooking up works just as well. That's really all dating is to me anyway, hooking up would just make it no strings attached. I like the idea of that. But mostly, right now, I just really want to be left alone. Jayce scared the shit out of me.

People can really change over the course of a year too. I mean...duh we are only 16-18 but still. It's odd knowing someone perfectly one day and then not knowing who they are the next. Just one night, one conversation, is all it takes for everything to come crashing down. It's really interesting if you look at it from the outside. It sucks if you're on the inside.

I don't understand many people anymore. Like how some people can just hurt others so easily without a care. I don't understand knowing that someone cares about you and just walking all over them. I don't understand doing things you know will hurt someone just for the satisfaction of seeing them hurt. I don't understand how there's satisfaction in that. I'm being a hypocrite because I've done things to purposely hurt people before too but I can honestly say I never got any real satisfaction out of it, yea I was able to say "ha you asshole, you hurt me now watch as I hurt you." but it still didn't make me feel any better about the situation. In fact I usually wish the situation wasn't bad to begin with. I don't like disliking people or cutting them out of my life although I know some times it really is completely nessecary.

It's strange really if you think about it. We're all just kids and everyday reality slams us in the face with something new. Everyday we see more of the world than we ever thought we would and it never, ever stops. You just learn how to handle it a little better each time.

Anyway, on a different topic The Tudors has been fucking amazing. I saw the newest episode today where they beheaded Anne Boleyn and Henry VIII announced his engagement to Jane Seymour. It was so sad. The acting on that show is really amazing. Haha I can weirdly relate this to what I was talking about earlier because I don't understand how Henry could just off Anne like that. He loved her, he fought so hard for her and then just threw her out and married Jane Seymour 10 days later. I don't understand how Jane could've been so okay with it either. It's evil what he did to her.

myurlisuseless @ 2008-05-26T23:19:00

2008-05-27T03:25:03Z

I went to Sarah's today and god I loved it.
We didn't even do anything major, we just chilled and talked.
We watched the cutest movie called Wristcutters, it's one of those movies you sit through thinking "wtf is going on?" until you see the end. Then you absolutely love it lol. It was adorable.

My mom went to New Orleans this weekend and brought me back the prettiest gold necklace.
It has the Eiffel Tower on it and a gold coin that says Amour. Tomorrow's her birthday too.

I found out the song Torn by Natalie Imbruglia describes a lot about me. Not in a cliche way either, I don't mean I'm sitting here heartbroken and torn. The situations the song talks about I can relate to a lot of my expeirences. I'm only gonna go into a detailed explanation to my close friends though so you guys are screwed.